let me start this journal by saying:
this is NOT a manifesto.
this is a journal. i am simply keeping track of my life as it happens,
because i want to. not because any specific person whos name starts with an S did this, and now i'm inspired to.
i have to say, i never expected myself to end up in the palce i am right now.
never in a million years. i also think that i am much different than many of the people in the same group as me.
most of them are a bunch of bigots, which to my understanding, is impossible.
i'm genderfluid, a lesbian (probably), and 110% not racist. which arleady makes me a unique case, according to the many
youtube videos i've watched on the topic (which would obviously make me an expert, of course.) (shoutout Dire Trip. this man did not radicalize me, to be clear.)
i was not radicalized. i do have radical views, such as:
however, i was not radicalized. i'm definitely not a "columbiner", those dudes were ugly as fuck. that's all for tonight. here's to hoping i don't wake up.
sorry about the last entry, that shit was all over the fucking place. i think i was just trying to get 30,000 thoughts out all in one sentence.
a few days ago (probably yesterday, i'm an idiot), i saw somebody on the side of the road asking for money, and i realized it's the guy who works at the store i work at.
i think from now on (if i'm even still working there at this point) i'll make sure to get out of his way when we're walking in opposite directions.